I signed up for the advanced BJJ classes to do the BJJ Endurance class at my school. The endurance class is just straight up rolling. For like an hour. There’s usually a lot of guys in the endurance class. And like maybe 3 girls sometimes.
Honestly, I’m pretty scared! I’m not scared that it’s mostly a bunch of dudes; I’m pretty used to it by now. I’m afraid of gassing out or cramping up!
I’m trying to boost up my stamina and learn how to think clearly while rolling. My friend and I talked about doing a tournament in September. It’s still a long way off but it’s going to be a tough road.
— Gautama Buddha (via purplebuddhaproject)
— Buddha (via purplebuddhaproject)
just when I was getting out of my frustration about my progress in BJJ and in school and ready to rock on an optimistic attitude….I GET SICK!!
heterosexualfashion asked: That person put was right about you being a good person. As long as you're trying to be a good person it means you are, in fact, a good person.
most of the time i don’t think i am a very good person so that makes me strive to be one. lol. does that makes sense?
But thank you for what you said, uzole :)
So I’m not going to lie, I feel self-conscious about myself sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I don’t measure up, and I compare myself to other people.
"He’s way more talented than I am. I don’t even have a talent."
"She’s really attractive/ has a nice body. I’m just cute, I’m not pretty/beautiful."
I think about things like that. I know I shouldn’t, but let’s be real. It’s gonna happen sometime, and it sucks when it does. But I’m learning to not compare myself to others and instead compare myself to how much I’ve progressed from my past. I’m also learning that everyone has an inner battle of their own.
There’s this girl at my gym. She’s a pretty neat person, and sometimes I compare myself to her. One day, we had a sort of heart-to-heart conversation. It didn’t get too deep but she told me that she doesn’t like the way she looks. WHAT? The guy I’m attracted to thinks she’s hot, but she doesn’t? WHAT? As we talked some more, I mentioned some personal things to her, and she said, "You’re a good person.”
That made me feel so good inside. I try to be a good person; I try to make good choices; I try very hard to not hurt other peoples’ feelings. And here someone told me "You’re a good person."
What would cause a person to say that? She and I have small conversations throughout the times we see each other at the gym. But I thought about it some more: we put in time and effort to talk to each other.
Time. And effort.
Someone, put in some time and effort to have small, short talks with me over the course of a few months and decided that I was a good person.
The best compliment I received wasn’t based on something superficial.